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Name: Adalmina
Gender: Female
Interests: evil sexy men. history. literature. music. good food (tofu!). fanfiction. parties. alternative fashion. models. friends. art. thoughtful people.
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2/4/2007
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| Oops, I haven't written here since forever.
Anyway, I have gotten some new weight loss inspiration.
You see, I just realised how terrible my skin will look in ten years if I don't start eating super healthy. If I don't start sleeping enough, if I don't work out. I will be a mess. Then I will look back and wish I had even this body I now have. And you know, realising this has worked. I've started eating more healthyly and summer works wonders, too. You know the hot weather doesn't really trigger hunger, just thirst so I have drunk lots of water. I've started stomaching berry smoothies for lunch.
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It's my 20th birthday! Happy birthday to me!
I went out dancing yesterday in a short dress (above). Hm, I know that I really shouldn't wear a dress that short until I'm at least 5kg lighter but you know, it was my birthdaynight. I had so much fun.
Oh well, the girl I've had this huge crush on for more than two years send me her favourite songs as a b-day present. God I can't help loving her, I wish she'd be even a little less like a definition of perfection so I could just get over it.
Last night I kind of started to bond with this one guy. He told me how his mother had died when he was fourteen. I don't know anythig but that I think of him a lot these days...
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Hmm, today I feel happy as hell - I think it's because the sun is shining! You know, I'm from Finland and we have long dark winters. When you finally see the sun, you can feelthe endorphine-rush :)
I know I'm still no where near my goal weight, but you know, Im so happy I don't even care. I'm not thin,not at all, but at least I have a frame. I've never wanted to be curvy, but maybe as years go by you just learn to accept that I for one will never lose my boobs no matter how hard I try.
Anyway, I've been doing quite well, food-wice, yesterday I ate too much but well that's just one failure-day. Today I'll go dancing and pretty much every day too, because I'm having my birthday on Saturday. I'm 20 then! I can't believe it but I'm actually surprised that I'm not having much of an age crisis. I'm just happy. Thank you, summer sun.
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| I was bored. What could be more fun than doing colourful eye make ups? Pink and gold! Who am I kidding, I'm just trying to avoid school work... I have to write an essay in Swedish, blaah.. 
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| I'm thinking that I might be addicted to sugar. Like, let's face it - the reason I can't lose weight is sugar. The thing that makes an addict and not just a regular consumer is how compulsive I am. Like today, I'm thinking about skipping school to be able to eat candy. How patheic is that. I know. I read that he only way to get rid off sugar addiction is to cut sugar off for good. Like, not even one single ice cream in the summer. I don't know if I could ever do it. I don't know... I mean, I don't see the point of cutting off all the sugar because it would make my social life more difficult. Or then I'd have to tell everyone I'm a sugar addict and that would be humiliating.
On the other hand, I'm always doing this - saying I can't quit drinking, eating sugar... because it's part of my social life. Is there a point when I should be thinking about my health, my me-life and not always the social part of it?
I think I'm just making excuses because giving up sugar... In the not-even-one-ice-cream-in-the-summer -way seems like a too big a sacrifice. Impossible sacrifice.
I'm still fat like that:
Oh well, these pictures don't really tell my weight because the dress is... weird.
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